This is how I felt today!

Anxious for my bloodwork results to come in after seeing the doc last Wed 9/27. I had planned on calling them Monday if I didn't hear anything. If anything, I was looking forward to getting started on my thyroid supplement to get my metabolism kick started back into gear. Where oh where is that prescription?

What I get instead is a summary of my bloodwork and a note from the doctor stating that my T4 (whatever that is) is too suppressed and needs to be higher therefore he needs to see me in another 6 weeks and will not start me on thyroid meds yet. However, my TSH levels are good and normal now. I have been trying really hard to stay positive about all of this because I know this condition can be treated, but now I'm just.....feeling more anxious. When I see the doc in 4 weeks (then wait 1 1/2 weeks after for lab results), what if my T4 levels still aren't good enough? Chances are I may need more radiation which I DO NOT want. If I have to, I will live with it, but I just don't wanna (that's a whine from me) b/c it made me so tired, sick and we have to make arrangements for the kids again.

I will whine again about my weight. I worked really hard to lose all the baby weight after each baby. I have gained an average of 1lb per week since August and I can't stand the extra 8-9lbs (+plus what I will keep gaining) on me. I don't carry that much weight on me and I feel so unhealthy...blah...blah...I have been trying to lose weight, but I keep gaining. The doctor thinks I am CRAZY, but I'm not...I refuse to let this thyroid issue make me fat, plain & simple. I don't have any time to be tired and 'lazy' b/c I am super busy with the kids. I take the occasional afternoon nap with the kids, but I won't accept this weight gain.

I need my metabolism back in check!!!!! AGH!!!!!!!!